Nicole Kidman is clearing up buzz that emerged when her ex, Tom Cruise, and Katie Holmes split up.
Theactress, who was married to Cruise from 1990 to 2001, describes thetime following her divorce as "the loneliest, loneliest existence." Butshe adds, "With Tom, it was a fantastic decade. I wish all of the peoplethat have been involved in my life well, because it's very important tome to be in a place of forgiveness and love." And she has no regrets"because it got me [children] Bella (19) and Connor (17)and I did have afantastic marriage for a long period."
She says, "When it didn'twork out, I had to really dig deep and find my way through depression.But I have no regrets about all of it. It was all a part of growing up."
NowKidman, 45, has moved on to marriage with Keith Urban. The two, who wedin 2006, have two daughters, Sunday and Faith. Her dream, she says, "isto grow very old with him."
But Kidman despaired of conceiving achild on her own, and calls her surprise pregnancy with daughter Sunday"the miracle of my life." (Connor and Bella were adopted; Faith wasborn via surrogacy.)
Kidman and Urban looked cuddly and cute as they hit the red carpet last night for a Film Society tribute to Nicole as part of the New York Film Festival. At a press conference Wednesday about Kidman's film, The Paperboy, she mentioned that director Lee Daniels wanted her to use the n-word, but she refused.
"Ididn't feel like it was right for the character," then after a second,"I have a son who's African American and I just didn't feel it wasright. It wasn't right."
Urban, a new American Idol judge,was asked about the Nicki Minaj-Mariah Carey blowup in Charlotte earlierthis week, and he insisted everyone is "getting along." And as forsitting between dueling divas, he told AP he has the "best seat in thehouse."