Kate Moss spent 'years' crying over Johnny Depp

The glamorous life of a supermodel doesn't sound so glamorous when Kate Moss talks about it.

One of the most famous names in the fashion world is Vanity Fair's cover girl and she says she has done so much posing for the camera that now, "I don't want to be myself, ever. I'm terrible at a snapshot. Terrible. I blink all the time. I've got facial Tourette's. Unless I'm working and in that zone, I'm not very good at pictures, really."

Moss, 38, reviews key moments in her life in the interview.

She remembers posing nude at 16 for a photo shoot with Corinne Day for The Face.

"I see a 16-year-old now, and to ask her to take her clothes off would feel really weird," she says. "But they were like, If you don't do it, then we're not going to book you again. So I'd lock myself in the toilet and cry and then come out and do it. I never felt very comfortable about it. There's a lot of boobs. I hated my boobs! Because I was flat-chested. And I had a big mole on one. That picture of me running down the beach - I'll never forget doing that, because I made the hairdresser, who was the only man on the shoot, turn his back."

She also says she regrets doing a 1992 Calvin Klein photo shoot that helped skyrocket her to fame. "I had a nervous breakdown when I was 17 or 18, when I had to go and work with Marky Mark and Herb Ritts," she says. "It didn't feel like me at all. I felt really bad about straddling this buff guy. I didn't like it. I couldn't get out of bed for two weeks. I thought I was going to die."

Despite becoming the face of "heroin chic" in modeling, she says, "I had never even taken heroin - it was nothing to do with me at all," Moss says. She just wasn't eating. "Carla Bruni took me out for lunch once. She was really nice. Otherwise, you don't get fed. But I was never anorexic. They knew it wasn't true- otherwise I wouldn't be able to work."

One bright spot in her early career: A brief but intense romance with Johnny Depp. "There's nobody that's ever really been able to take care of me. Johnny did for a bit. I believed what he said," Moss says. "Like if I said, 'What do I do?,' he'd tell me. And that's what I missed when I left. I really lost that gauge of somebody I could trust. Nightmare. Years and years of crying. Oh, the tears!"

USA Today